Thursday, February 24, 2011

Starting now...

Last night I had a dream, but based on the way I felt when I woke up, I should better call it a nightmare. I felt distressed and distraught. Out of it... I hate feeling that way. I guess I dreamt about the wolf because I talked about him at dinner last night. Note to myself: never talk about the wolf... ever. That way I will not dream about him. Because of how I felt this morning and still kinda do, this song perfectly fits the way I feel right now. Ingrid Michaelson is awesome like that.

Ingrid Michaelson - Starting Now

I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb
I want to shut out all the lights in this room
I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that I think of you

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil
Feel like I watch from 6 feet under the soil
Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears
But I re count the countless tears that I lost for you

I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin
I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains
Spinning away every piece that remains of you.

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

Starting now I'll never know your name
Starting now I'll never feel the same
Starting now I wish you never came into my world.
It's my world, it's not ours anymore

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