Monday, December 31, 2012

Stand




You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame

Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand

Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on


Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend till you break
Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand


Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place




Catch My Breath




I don't wanna be left behind
Distance was a friend of mine
Catching breath in a web of lies
I've spent most of my life
Riding waves, playing acrobat
Shadowboxing the other half
Learning how to react
I've spent most of my time

Catching my breath, letting it go,
Turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life,
I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back,
I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down,
It's all so simple now

Addicted to the love I found
Heavy heart, now a weightless cloud
Making time for the ones that count
I'll spend the rest of my time
Laughing hard with the windows down
Leaving footprints all over town
Keeping faith, karma comes around
I will spend the rest of my life

Catching my breath, letting it go,
Turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life,
I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back,
I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down,
It's all so simple now

You helped me see
The beauty in everything

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back,
I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down,
It's all so simple now
It's all so simple now

Catching my breath, letting it go,
Turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life,
I won't be told what's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back,
I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down,
It's all so simple now



Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Now or Never



Lost, I groped around, looking for it
But the answer to the future has been locked away
And I can’t find it anywhere
An urge to dash out, I can’t decipher it right now

Found, that fate should have been broken
Yet I heard it in my immature dream
“Until the last moment, I’ll be there for you”

I won’t stop here, this clock’s hand is the only thing
That cuts through the sounds carving out my tomorrow
If I run away from the truth now
If I lose to reality now
What will be left?

My countless wounds are the only things
That can tell the story of my yesterday as afterimages
Even if the knots of fate are loosened now
Even if my existence is destroyed now
I will keep walking on my own way
It’s now or never

Breathe, I reached a dead end and lost it
Days when I struggled alone, wishing someone would save me
Holding on to such sentiments, I’m in a desperate situation now

Cry, my uncontrollably flowing tears
Are moistening my dried-up heart
As I throw away my faded past

All the words go around in my head
searching for the signs I misread
black or white, wrong or right
it’s an inner war we all fight

Somewhere, buried under these lies
I can see a truth that hides beyond your eyes
in the tears you cry

This is my life
I don’t know where to begin
I’ve been wandering
looking for the voices within
This is my life
Think I’ve found a place to begin
This is my life
This is my life

Only the heart that you reached out to
Lights up the present moment, leading us on our way
Without turning back, I can start now
Without being afraid, I can step out
I’ll pave my own way and go ahead

I won’t stop here, this clock’s hand is the only thing
That cuts through the sounds carving out my tomorrow
If I run away from the truth now
If I lose to reality now
What will be left?

My countless wounds are the only things
That can tell the story of my yesterday as afterimages
Even if the knots of fate are loosened now
Even if my existence is destroyed now
I will keep walking on my own way
It’s now or never

This is what they say
“Live your life today.
There will always be,
there will always be a way.”

~ Nano

Solace


 
I just stood and looked at her. I guess it’s getting to be too much for her, at timeseven for her. I do not think she allows herself to know how tired she is. She was asleep on the sofa. She had been there all night. She looked like a young girl. She looked as if she felt certain that she would awaken in a world where no one would harm her, as if she had nothing to hide or to fear. But what I saw after that was terrible: that guiltless purity of her face, with her body twisted by exhaustion, still lying there as she had collapsed…

(Ayn Rand ~ Description of Dagny Taggart: Atlas Shrugged pg. 407)

No pain, No game



Embracing the furthest ends of stories
I aimlessly continued loitering about
This blurred out new world

The game has only just begun
Right now with the eyes of beginnings

This is what tomorrow brings >>> a new game
It's time to learn that pain is gain. Ready! Fight!

In order to paint out the disappointments of the past
I made the future my scapegoat
Until my life is all used up
I'll just destroy that destiny

Ah~
Break out and start a revolution
And search for one answer

Tackling the race of my limits
Knowing that it's my only chance
I'll get passed it with the fate that I'm burdened with

Embracing the furthest ends of stories
I aimlessly continued loitering about
This blurred out new world

The game has only just begun
Right now with the eyes of beginnings

When you feel you've reached the last dead end
what will you do to save yourself from fate?
Would you take a knife into your heart
or would you rather break the fall and take defeat?

Ah~
Step out and find your evolution
Project out your own world

Contending for a chase of eternity
Making a once in a life time start
I'll pass through even the insane wills of the heavens

Holding close the images that withered away
I continued fighting without cause to in this
Hazy true world

The game has only just begun
Now, are the beginning days

In the thresholds of reality and fake
Allow a reset of only one time
And salvation will surely be inside your heart

Embracing the furthest ends of stories
I aimlessly continued loitering about
This blurred out new world

The game has only just begun
Right now with the eyes of beginnings

~ Nano


Sunday, September 30, 2012

Titanium


You shout it out,
But I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud not saying much
I'm criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up


I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away

Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away

You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium


Cut me down
But it's you who have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud not saying much

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium

Stone-hard, machine gun
Firing at the ones who run
Stone-hard as bulletproof glass

You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium


Not Over You



Take me away – I look at my wristwatch
Just as always, a long silence finds me
The approaching train passes me by
I live with the belief that the next one will come when this one passes
If I opened my eyes for half the day, I am walking alone like yesterday
That’s not a big deal – I’m scared of meeting you
As I’m walking alone through the memories
Oh (Oh) Are you hurting as much as me? Can’t you look back at me first?
I’m standing opposite of you but I’m not over you
The shadow walking ahead of me beckons me
That narrow street corner takes me there (I follow it)
I still cleary see the two people standing there
Anyone can see that they’re so beautiful – they look pretty happy
If I opened my eyes for half the day, I am walking alone like yesterday
That’s not a big deal – I’m scared of meeting you
As I’m walking alone through the memories
If only I can turn back time
I wouldn’t have divided our memories or walked the other way
I’m not over you
Oh, you’re not by my side but
Oh but you’re still in me

Oh, the skies are clear again today
Oh, but rain falls in my eyes, oh
The memories are so sad
They remind me that it’s not now but it’s the past


Friday, August 10, 2012

Dreamer




Do a little riddle
It's not a game we play or the goal we aim for
We obey much too soon and let it slip away
It is the key to seeing and feeling the real view
Only seed we received "a part of you"
They'll take your wings when you have it all so easy
Enslave your soul if you run from the suffering See?
But it is never too late
空見上げ その目が描き掴むモノ何 ?

When you realize

You're ready for the turn
Hope is on your side
You know what I'm sayin'?

So why do you keep judging thingsthat you don't get to know?

There's no need to feel like you are losing yourself
Some people wanna say she's just a dreamer
そんなんじゃ揺るがない 'cause 
I'm not the only one whose dreams could change this world
(Go on dream all your dreams)
I am not scared of wanting more
(So now whatcha waiting for?
You only got one life to live
Time's ticking Sky is the limit 
Winds blowing like never before Right?)
And I don't care what others will say
Yeah I'm dreamer! 

Freaks!! Tic tack no we don't stop

そう 力の尽きるまで (Keep work it out!)
Burn it up baby you don't stop
そう 炎の尽きるまで
Come and see them
Chicken shit ただ吠えるだけ
Say what you say but you can keep me away
Call me "a trouble" I ain't scared no more
Baby mama's drama? Imma make my own way!!!
Fucked up war in the fucked world
変わらぬまま誰も皆 
Freaked out! Looking for a escape goat 
祭り上げ虚栄や保身に委ねるだけ
What are we gonna say to our kids and their kids?
(Ladies, leave this mess)
How we ever gonna leave this mess?
The change must come and it's our first step
その殺した心 解き放て

So why do you keep judge thingsthat you don't get to know

There's no need to feel like "you are losing yourself"
Some people want to say "She's just a dreamer"
相手にさえならない 'cause
I'm not the only one whose dreams could change this world
(Go on dream all your dreams)
I am not scared of wanting more
(So now whatcha waiting for? You only got one like to live
Time's ticking; Sky is the limit 
Winds blowing like never before Right?)
And I don't care what others will say
Yeah I'm dreamer! 

Nothings gonna matter without dreams to motivate

without hope to take you higher
you won't know what is at stake.
(Dream gives life, it's state of mind
It's not where you're at but in what you try)
Nothings gonna matter without dreams to motivate
without hope to take you higher
you won't know what is at stake.
Oh how I wish, it's just a state of mind.

So Why do you keep judge things that you don't get to know

疑わなくていい like "you are losing yourself"
Some people want to say "
She's just a dreamer"
つまらない戯れ言 but
I'm not the only one whose dreams could change this world
(Go on dream all your dreams)
どんな時でも(So now whatcha waiting for? 
You only got one life to live
Time's ticking Sky is the limit 
Winds blowing like never before Right?)
And I don't care what others will say
Yeah I'm dreamer 
(Yeah be a dreamer!)

We obey much too soon and let is slip away

It is the key to seeing and feeling the real view
Only seed we received "a part of you
"They'll take your wings when you have it all so easy
Now save yourself in the suffering See?
'Cause it is never too late
空見上げ その目が描き掴むモノなんだ!!

~ BECCA

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Guns and Horses





You're so quiet
But it doesn't phase me
You're on time
You move so fast
Makes me feel lazy

And let's join forces
We've got our guns and horses
I know you've been burned
But every fire is a lesson learned

I left my house
Left my clothes
Door wide open
Heaven knows
You're so worth it, you are

But I wish I could feel it all for you
I wish I could be it all for you
If I could erase the pain
And maybe you'd feel the same
I'd do it all for you
I would, I would, I would, I would

Lets type words
'Cause they amount to nothing
Play it down
Pretend you can't take what you've found
But you found me
On a screen you sit at permanently

I left my house
Left my clothes
Door wide open
Heaven knows
You're so worth it, you are

But I wish I could feel it all for you
I wish I could be it all for you
If I could erase the pain
And maybe you'd feel the same
I'd do it all for you
I would, I would, I would, I would

It's time to come clean and make sense of everything
It's time that we found out who we are
'Cause when I'm standing here in the dark
I see your face in every star

But I wish I could feel it all for you
I wish I could be it all for you
If I could erase the pain
And maybe you'd feel the same
I'd do it all for you
I would, I would, I would
I'd do it all for you
I'd do it all for you 

~ Ellie Goulding


Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Only One


You’re only getting farther – you’re the only one
As much as I loved you, you’re the only one
It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye
Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one
Only one


We awkwardly sit across each other,
Making small talk and asking what’s new
The moments when the conversation stop for a moment
The cold silence freezes us
We will become strangers at this place right now
Someone will shed tears and be left alone but
I hate seeing you try not to scar me and feel ill at ease
So I’ll let you go


My love, good bye now – you’re the only one (you’re the only one)
Even at the moment we break up, you’re the only one
It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye
Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one
Only One


You’re the only one, Only One
At my sudden works, you seem to be relieved for some reason
Where did we go wrong?
Did we hope for different places starting from long ago?
The sharpness of the vast difference of our start and end
And the pain that stabs my heart – why is it so similar?
My overwhelmed heart crumbles emptily in just one moment
How can I stand up again?


My love, good bye now – you’re the only one (you’re the only one)
Even at the moment we break up, you’re the only one
It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye
Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one


When will my head erase you? (I will let you go)
One day, two days, one month, if long term then a few years 
(My baby, I can’t forget)
And someday in your memories,
I won’t live in it, you will erase me
Only One Only One
You’re the only one, Only One


~ BoA




Sunday, June 10, 2012

Wide Awake



I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was in the dark

I was falling hard
With an open heart

I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong?

I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems

I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

I wish I knew then
What I know now


Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete


Falling from cloud 9

Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
Yeah I'm falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
Picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself 


I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Outta the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end

Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling

Yeah, I'm Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
You know I'm letting go tonight
I'm Falling from cloud 9


I'm wide awake
I am trying to hold on
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
But I'm not blind anymore
I'm wide awake


Oceans



Don't want to be the one to walk away
But I can't bear the thought of one more day

I think I finally understand what it means to be lost

Can't find the road to lead us out of this
A million miles from where we burned the bridge

Can't keep pretending everything's going to be alright
With the whole world falling down on me


Cross the oceans in my mind
Find the strength to say goodbye

In the end you never can wash the blood from your hands

Fallen so far from where we were before
You'll never find what you've been searching for
Something to fill the void and make up for all of those missing pieces of you
Like I could only dream to do


Cross the oceans in my mind
Find the strength to say goodbye

Everything that we believed in was a lie

Cross the oceans in your mind
Find a way to blur the line

In the end you never can wash the blood from your hands

Oh, we never learn
So we fall down again
Heaven, help me find a way to dream within this nightmare


Cross the oceans in my mind
Find the strength to say goodbye

Everything that we believed in was a lie

Cross the oceans in your mind
Find a way to blur the line
In the end you never can wash the blood from your hands


I Caught Myself


Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you

But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought of you 


You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

You got it you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic hypnotic

You're leaving me breathless
I hate this I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should've never thought of you of you

You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
When I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something
That I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something
That I should've never thought of you


I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I knew, but now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I've should have never thought

~ Paramore


Don't Tempt Me

We all want what we can't have. In fact, most of the time we only want things because they are unavailable or forbidden. To justify the purchase, we convince ourselves that what we want so desperately is also what we need. The trouble is, impulse purchases can often lead to en expensive case of buyer's remorse. 

~ from "Ghostgirl: Homecoming" by Tonya Hurley

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Forget Me Not. Northern Cross.



I can no longer remember the start of this journey. 
Before I realized, I was already here. 
As the seasons wore away, 
Those who sense the invisible infrared rays become lost.

I will probably lose them, 
These feelings that I risk my life for. 
I loved as if I were fighting to survive. 
I spent all my time building my dream. 
I wanted to land on that star. 
I wanted to fly in your sky.

Wouldn't someone please caress my empty contours?
Pushed on by the beating of in my chest, these words of love rolled out of my mouth. 
But no one answers them, and I don't know what to do. 
Chosen by destiny, the Northern Star is burning bright. 
Though it snatched you away from me into the sooty darkness, 
You continued to smile so gracefully. I loved that part of you.

If you are gone, then there's no meaning left to life.
I don't care if everyone disappeared. 
If my love is gone, then I have no more use for my heart. 
This world can just disappear.

I was always in pain.
I would risk my life for that first time we met. 
I dreamt as if I were struggling to breathe. 
I reached my hands out blindly. 
I wanted to listen to your heartbeat. 
I wanted to build a rainbow with you.

Wouldn't someone please embrace me tightly with daybreak's sentimentality.
Tears of love that scatter as they are repelled by orbits of dreams will do. 
Their painful flow is just fine for me. 
Called back by destiny, the Northern Star is crying. 
If I have to survive in this labyrinth anyway, 
I want to die loving you to my last breath.

And it will begin, 
The finale I will risk my life for.
I loved as if I were fighting to survive.
I kicked on dreams on until they are crumpled.
I wanted to end on that star.
I wanted to bloom in your sky.

Wouldn't someone please caress my empty contours?
The motions of time have erased away
The words of love that could not be saved.
So please, give me your answer one more time.
Chosen by destiny, the Northern Star is burning bright.
Though it snatched you away from me into the sooty darkness,
You continued to smile so gracefully. I loved that part of you. 

- Yoko Kanno, Yuho Iwasato & Gabriela Robin