Sing me life...

This song was written by Gaby Moreno: a very talented Guatemalan singer-songwriter. Her song describes how I feel most days. I attached the song for you to listen to it. It is amazing! Enjoy! :)

Sing the ups
Sing the downs
And the silent people shaking the grounds
Sing the faith
Sing the truth
Burning fire in the belly of youth
Sing the progress
And some missteps
While we're making our way
Somedays it's so hard to escape the dark cloud
Hovering over our heads

Sing the bright day
From a long night
And a tunnel giving way to the light
Sing the good deeds
And the fowl plays
And crosses carried we all pay
Face the problem in our system
We can fight this disease
(I know) Somedays it's so hard to escape the dark cloud
Hovering over our heads

But I'm not gonna let them bend my view
I'm not gonna let them paint me blue
Not this time, not any time,
I'm gonna sing me life
That's what I'm gonna do
(And you should too)

Sing, sing, sing, sing, sing

- Gaby Moreno

Monster

I don't know if I have told you all, but Paramore is one of my favorite bands. What I love the most about Paramore is that they always have a song that speaks about what I am living through. Their newest single speaks a lot about what I am going through right now in my life. I always try to explain how the lyrics apply to my life and how I feel.

Please feel free to comment and enjoy the video. :)

Paramore - Monster

You were my conscience, so solid, now you're like water.Yep, I had relationships with a people that thought they were my freaking conscious. I might sound a bit resentful, but these people hurt me so much. They thought they had me in their hands, but they no longer have that control or power over me. They are like water just passing through.
And we started drowning, not like we'd sink any farther. And yes, I went through some troubled times after they had no control over me, but you always float back to surface, right?
But I let my heart go, it's somewhere down the bottom. I hit rock bottom, but I was able to swim back up. My heart was so heavy due to their influence that I felt it was at the bottom.
But I'll get a new one and come back for the hope that you've stolen. I came back. My heart might not be new, but it is regenerating itself thanks to the love and support of people who really care about me and listen to MY dreams.

I'm only human, I've got a skeleton in me. At the end of the day, we are only human, we make mistakes, we are not perfect. We are ALLOWED to make mistakes, right? Even if it hurts. That is what life is all about.
but I'm not the villain, despite what you're always preaching. They all preach I have given my back to God. That my life is twisted. That I am a sinner. I know that's not true. I am just me. Trying to survive. And I make mistakes, but this mistakes only harm myself. So why do they judge me? I am not hurting anybody else. Why don't they leave me alone? I have tried to be a good person. I wish they would stop preaching and let me live my life.
Call me a traitor, I'm just collecting your victims. So many people are getting fed up of being pointed at and they are looking for support. I will come along and try to give them support. (through counseling). All together we will be able to open the minds and hearts of the close-minded people. Make them see that there is another way to live than instilling fear in others.
And they're getting stronger. People are really getting fed of being pointed at. Their weakness becomes their strength.
I hear them calling.

Well, you find your strength in solutions. Some people think they are strong because they know the answer to everything. But that is not always applicable to everybody...
But I liked the tension. Some people, like myself, find strength in the adversity because it is like we are hit by a light once we actually find a way out of our problems. It is more enlightening when you are struggling and you find the way, as to when you always "have control" Sometimes this control is just a facade.
And not always knowing the answers. I have learned to feel okay with not knowing all the answers. I am not going to kill myself for not knowing. The unknown now makes me excited and curious, and no longer afraid. Whatever needs to pass, shall pass. Everything happens for a reason, and I embrace my unknown future with a curious expectancy.
But you're gonna lose it, you're gonna lose it. The people that judge me are going to regret ever pointing their fingers at me. I will laugh in their faces.

I'll stop the whole world, I'll stop the whole world
From turning into a monster, eating us alive. Others and I will stop the world from judging, and even if we cannot completely stop them, we will find a way that whatever they say will not affect us, but will affect them. We will make them sorry for being "monsters" towards us. They will regret talking behind our backs. They will regret judging us. They will regret saying we were this and that. We will show them who is better.
Don't you ever wonder how we survive? Their ridiculous charades have made us stronger. Their ridiculous ways have made us find ways to overcome all the bad things that attack us.
Now that your gone, the world is ours. Now that we no longer pay attention to them and we kick them out of our minds and hearts, they have no power over us. The world is ours.

Glider

Today is my anniversary with my boyfriend, Ryan. Three years together. We have been through so much and we are here: together, stronger than ever. I love him so much. He has been my strength and light when I felt weak and I was falling into the darkness. I love him so much.

I also love this song because it is super cute, and when I sing it and dance to it, I think about Ryan and how cute and goofy he can be sometimes. I love him. I know everything from here on is going to be just fine. Everything is going to be OK because I do not have that many ghosts haunting me anymore, and the ones that I still have can be taken care of. Our love is stronger than bakemonos (ghosts). I can feel it strong and I can see it clearly. I hope you guys like the song too. It is so adorable and Toshiko's voice transmits such cute and serene feelings. She gets what I am feeling in the song. Here you go!

Capsule - Glider 【グライダー】

Though I want to put clothes made in Heaven on
And I have a dream of flying in the sky
Though the sun is warm too
My wings have already broken
I felt like anything would come true
It was just a matter in the limited world
Am I the only one
That has never been out of this wall?

Since that day

There has been
Something precious

Unchanging in my heart
My feelings are high
Words are surely a glider
Almost always
I feel like I'm flying
After all, we seem to be living
Ah, from a distant place
I can't pray
For you
Come here
I want to be with you

The Sky

OK, weird! I just noticed that my first two entries in June are related to the sky. I don't know why.

That was totally not intentional. So random, I know! I just saw it and was like: O.o

Crimson Sky = blood & pain?

Starry Sky = dreams & hope?

Wow, I really scare myself sometimes.

Good thing I am going to therapy! :D

Starry☆Sky

I do not think I have mentioned this before, but I tend to obsess over a new song each week. I think this is because of my OCD tendencies. Anyways, when I find this song I like a lot, I listen to the song over an over again. Why? Because the song probably evokes some very strong and intense emotions from me and I like to soak myself in those emotions? Yeah, that must be it... O.o

So, here is the song I have been obsessing over this week. Capsule reminds me a little bit of Daft Punk and of Perfume (which makes sense since Capsule has the same producer as Perfume: Yasutaka Nakata a.k.a. J-electropop genius). This song is so simple yet so strong. Oh, and just as a heads up, Toshiko starts to sing until minute 1:30, but the music before that is super cool. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do, and I hope you feel the urge to sing and dance as I do. ^_^

Capsule - Starry☆Sky (スターリースカイ)

I sing for you. (I literally do. I love to sing, and I sing a lot when I am in love or when I just feel happy.)
I think of you (All the time! ^_^)
I remember when I lost my mind (I love losing my mind over happy things!)
Remember when you catch my heart (Le sigh.)

You know for you
You don't be shy
I remember when I lost my mind
Remember when you catch my heart

Today Starry sky. (I love starry skies, don't you?)
Let me kiss you
Today is starry
Come to find me
Starry sky

Hishoku No Sora >>> "Crimson Sky"

Mami Kawada - Hishoku No Sora

And so, dye this sky red. (Equivalent to blood in my book.) The time has come again for my body to only go forward. (I just gotta keep on going. I cannot let anything stop me. I have come so far.)

Even the ‘people’ who pass by and the ‘THINGS’ which become lost in confusion will one day be like vanished memories. A passionate unwavering ‘strength’, a fleeting swaying ‘weakness’. They meet the same end after all. (Don't we all?)

Such ordinary days melt the mundane world. (And they melt me as well.) The sun appears above the crimson world. Flutter in the wind and draw back the lines. Like the flowing tips of the hair, pierce the enemy. The feelings which were slashed, the swelling dream. Now, I will only carry all of my duties in my hands until the end. (I have to keep on moving. No faltering. My heart is buried deep. Guarded. I dare anyone to come near. They will be encountered my the darkest soldiers.)

Once again, another light has fallen, it has quietly disappeared to somewhere. It’s the reality which doesn’t change day after day. However, I definitely feel it, your warmth, your heartbeat. This can also be called the truth.

And so, it becomes crimson, scattering the mundane world. It’s now starting in the background of the evening sun. Why do I feel hesitation and confusion in my rapidly throbbing heart? Hurry, destroy this pain which explodes in useless rage.

The stained and scorched clouds in the sky burn the wishes concealed within. (My wishes that were buried deep might burn.) Tears welled up in my hesitant eyes, but change them into strength tomorrow. (My sorrow and my tears will become my strength.)

Offer up everything to the land where I have descended. With my single bright blade, I shall decapitate the darkness. The light deep within my heart will always sparkle. I will only carry out my duties until the end.

Perseverance...

My awesome President could not have said it any better. He really inspires me. He speaks the truth. Reality. After reading this, I feel invincible, like I can do anything, because I feel like what I have gone through is not all for nothing. I have a different perspective. I feel hope. I feel strong. I feel wise. No regrets. Empowered. Awesome. Ready to take on the world with my loved ones by my side.

Making your mark on the world is hard. If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it’s not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won’t. it’s whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere.

- Barack Obama