Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

Here are some things I learned from the book 'Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close'. I can relate to them so much, and if I don't relate to them just yet, I feel like I will be able to apply them to my life someday ~

~I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.

~ I regret that it takes a life to learn how to live.

~ It's not a horrible world, but it is filled with a lot of horrible people.

~ So many people enter and leave your life. Hundreds of thousands of people! You have to keep the door open so they can come in! But it also means you have to let them go.

~ There are more places you haven't heard of than you've heard of.

~ Why didn't I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.

~ There's nothing wrong with not understanding yourself.

~ ...sometimes you have to put your fears in order...

~ The end of suffering does not justify the suffering, and so there is no end to suffering.

~ I took the world into me, rearranged it, and sent it back out as a question: "Do you like me?"

~ I looked at everyone and wondered where they came from, and who they missed and what they were sorry for. I started to wonder if there were other people so lonely so close to each other. I thought about 'Eleanor Rigby'. It's true. Where do they all come from? Where do they all belong? 

Jonathan Safran Foer, for making me think about life with more intensity than I did before.

More Than This

Cradling stones hold fire bright

As crickets call out to the moonlight

As you lean in to steal a kiss

I'll never need more than this

We all share the pain of our histories

But the ache goes away if you could see

This night under stars, well, I call it peace

If you say, I'll never need more than this

The trees grow so thick

You can barely see through

But the forest bestows the simplest of truths

You think you'll be happy if granted one more wish

But the truth is you'll never need more

You'll never need more

You'll never need more than this

Want so much in this life

There's so much to be

We sail through our youth so impatiently

Until we see

That the years move along

And soldiers and heroes come home

And they carry a song

Don't live in forgotten times

May this always remind you

Of the sea under the skies blue looking glass

Let's make this our story, let's live in the glory

Time, it fades away

Precious as a song

Cause someday we'll be gone

Cradling stones hold fire bright

As we watch the glow of the morning light

Someday our bones here they will lie, and so we sing

As the years move along and soldiers and heroes come home

And they carry a song

Let's make this our story

Let's live in the glory

Time, it fades away

Precious as a song

Cause someday we'll be gone

~ Vanessa Carlton

Distractions, Frustrations, and Losing Yourself.

Don’t you just hate it when you can’t focus on what you need to? Having your mind filled with thoughts that shouldn't be there, or being distracted by something that shouldn’t matter anymore? Having to think about what should’ve been or could’ve been. Or what would’ve been. Overthinking to the point where your mind becomes a wreck and you end up not thinking at all? ~ just going blank. So you lay your head down and just think to yourself,“Why me? Why now?”.

Definition

Good question. Some people say I'm adventurous, bouncy, cheerful, clumsy, crazy, curious, dreamer, dorky, emotional, energetic, flirty, funny, giggly, goofy, happy, hyper, jubilant, mischievous, nerdy, optimistic, passionate, romantic, silly, weird and many other things. I am just a girl (I am not normal, that's for sure - anything but ordinary please) trying to be happy and I fight for my dreams. I wanna go where no one has gone and I wanna feel what no one has felt! I love life, colors, ADVENTURES, laughing, I LOVE LOVE!!! I believe that if you change YOUR world the WHOLE world will change around you. I love Japanese animation, J-pop, K-pop and cosplaying! I am a proud otaku. I leave with you a glimpse of what defines me!

Otaku.

No One

I am moving through the crowd

Trying to find myself

Feel like a guitar that's never played

Will someone strum away?

And I ask myself

Who do I wanna be?

Do I wanna throw away the key?

and invent a whole new me

and I tell myself

No One, No One

Don't wanna be

No One

But me

You are moving through the crowd

Trying to find yourself

Feelin' like a doll left on a shelf

Will someone take you down?

And you ask yourself

Who do I wanna be?

Do I wanna throw away the key?

and invent a whole new me

Gotta tell yourself

No One, No One

Don't wanna be

No One

But me

Your life plays out on the shadows of the wall

You turn the light on to erase it all

You wonder what it's like to not feel worthless

So open all the blinds and all the curtains

No One, No One

Don't wanna be

No One

But me

We are moving through the crowd...

S P I C E

I love this song so much. I loved it even before I translated it. It had a certain vibe that I could not tear myself away from. Now that I know what the song says, it makes perfect sense. If you would know me, you would understand. To help you understand, I am a hardcore daydreamer and this song is every daydreamer's hymn. It is full of tenderness, melancholy and longing. le sigh. Only helpless romantics like myself feel drawn to it I guess. Anyhow, my girls never disappoint me. Their singing and dancing gets better with each video (Perfume is amazing!). I adore everything they do. I have listened to this song way more times than I am willing to confess. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Listen carefully

If you stare,

Look, if the door opens

Everything is shown

Maybe it’s best to not know

But I wanna be excited unexpectedly

Over and over, the spice of curiosity awakens something

Listen carefully

If you stare,

Look, if the door opens

Everything is shown

Maybe it’s best to not know more than this

I’m so anxious, I’m falling in love

The short distance feels far away, even if I feel it in the same room

Maybe it’s best to not know

But I wanna be excited unexpectedly

Over and over, the spice of curiosity awakens something

Listen carefully

If you stare,

Look, if the door opens

Everything is shown

But maybe it’s best to not know

I’m so anxious, I’m falling in love

The distance feels far away, even if I feel it in the same room

Maybe it’s best to not know

But I wanna be excited unexpectedly

Over and over, the spice of curiosity awakens something

Maybe

Over and over, the spice of curiosity awakens something

I wanna be excited

I’m so anxious

SPICE