Blinding...

When I think in the mental state I have been in the last couple of months, Flo's song is so adequate to describe such state...

Florence + The Machine - Blinding

Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state
A tourist in the waking world, never quite awake
No kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
Until I realize that it was you who held me under

Felt it in my fist, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids
Shaking through my skull, through my spine and down through my ribs

And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
Because all the walls of dreaming, they were torn right open
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken

And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world

Starting now...

Last night I had a dream, but based on the way I felt when I woke up, I should better call it a nightmare. I felt distressed and distraught. Out of it... I hate feeling that way. I guess I dreamt about the wolf because I talked about him at dinner last night. Note to myself: never talk about the wolf... ever. That way I will not dream about him. Because of how I felt this morning and still kinda do, this song perfectly fits the way I feel right now. Ingrid Michaelson is awesome like that.

Ingrid Michaelson - Starting Now

I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb
I want to shut out all the lights in this room
I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that I think of you

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil
Feel like I watch from 6 feet under the soil
Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears
But I re count the countless tears that I lost for you

I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin
I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains
Spinning away every piece that remains of you.

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

Starting now I'll never know your name
Starting now I'll never feel the same
Starting now I wish you never came into my world.
It's my world, it's not ours anymore

Breakable...

Sometimes you really regret doing certain things... I regret giving my heart to a wolf... Little Red Riding Hood was certainly way smarter than me... u.u

Ingrid Michaelson - Breakable

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

You fasten my seatbelt because it is the law.
In your two ton death trap I finally saw.
A piece of love in your face that bathed me in regret.
Then you drove me to places I'll never forget.

And we are so fragile,
And our cracking bones make noise,
And we are just,
Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

Perfume - 575

This is literally the last song I sent to him... I wonder how things changed so much from then to now. A beautiful song by one of my favorite bands: Perfume.

I don't want to lose to this love, give it, give it up
In the season when hot wind blows, my heart sways
Even now, I still don't believe them
But those words remain stuck in my mind

We can't meet, and I wonder where my feelings could be
I want to see you, but I can't find the keypad
Even though I wish this distance could shrink soon
Moody boy, what could I send to you ?

I play at lining up words like 5-7-5; ah, I want to search for your heart
1-2-3 passes slowly, and the final train has already closed
"Ah, I've got some free time now" -- could this be my chance ?
Pushing the buttons little by little now
I close my eyes and pray for a reply as I send these feelings to you

"Hey, hey, what are you up to now ? "
"I thought I'd go to sleep soon"
But I don't want to sleep at all
Our conflict in the empty dead of night
It's a natural high; is today already a goodnight ?
He's such a selfish person, but he's the one I love
Good night; this season isn't over yet

I don't want to give him to that girl, give it, give it up
In the season when hot wind blows, I wipe away my tears
Even now, I still don't believe them
But those words remain stuck in my mind

We can't meet, and I wonder where my feelings could be
I want to see you, but I can't find the keypad
Even though I wish this distance could shrink soon
Moody boy, what could I send to you ?

I play at lining up words like 5-7-5; ah, I want to search for your heart
1-2-3 passes slowly, and the final train has already closed
"Ah, I've got some free time now" -- could this be my chance ?
Pushing the buttons little by little now
I close my eyes and pray for a reply as I send these feelings to you

"Hey, hey, what are you up to now ? "
"I thought I'd go to sleep soon"
But I don't want to sleep at all
Our conflict in the empty dead of night
It's a natural high; is today already a goodnight ?
He's such a selfish person, but he's the one I love
Good night, good morning; this season isn't over yet

We can't meet, and I wonder where my feelings could be
I want to see you, but I can't find the keypad
Even though I wish this distance could shrink soon
Moody boy, what could I send to you ?

"Heavy In Your Arms" - Florence And The Machine [OFFICIAL]

I love Florence Welch.

Florence + The Machine - Cosmic Love

I shall see Florence this summer again! I saw her for my bday last year, and I shall see her again! muahahahahahaha I am like super excited!

In the Mourning...

Paramore = new song! And pretty self-explanatory for me, since many things in my past are dying or dead to me now (finally) and I am being set free from them... I hope you like the song as much as I do.

Paramore - In The Mourning

You escape like a runaway train
Off the tracks and down again
My heart's beating like a steam boat tugging all your burdens
On my shoulders

In the mourning I'll rise
In the mourning I'll let you die
In the mourning, all my worry.

Now there's nothing but time that's wasted
And words that have no backbone
Now it seems like the whole world's waiting
Can you hear the echoes fading?

In the mourning I'll rise
In the mourning I'll let you die
In the mourning, all my 'sorry's