Te siento...

Hoy desperté a las 3 am llorando y retorciendomé del dolor, pero no era dolor físico. Era más bien dolor que sale de lo mas profundo del corazón... el peor dolor porqué no sabes como hacerlo parar, porque no puedes curarlo con medicina... Lloraba por tí, porque ya no te tengo en mi vida, porque me haces falta, porque tú llenabas algo en mi que nadie mas puede llenar, ni siquiera él. Aunque el me ame mucho, no puede llenar ese vacío como tú. Lloraba, cantaba y oraba a la vez, estuve así por dos horas, hasta que el se percató que yo no dormía y el intentó consolarme, finalmente logrando que yo conciliara el sueño. Tengo miedo de que nunca te vaya a poder olvidar, y que esto que siento dentro siempre será así de fuerte y yo no podré estar sin tí, pero debo ser fuerte, por mi y por él, por nosotros, porque yo lo amo a el tanto como te amaba y todavía te amo a tí. Mientras lloraba se me venía a la mente esta canción...

Me desperté llorando,

soñé que no volvías,

Que no llegaba a tiempo quizás,

quizás tu despedida.

Las lagrimas saladas,

mojaban mis mejillas,

mi carita empapada, los sueños,

los sueños que morían.

No importarán las formas,

ni la piel que te pongas.

Ni cuándo, dónde y cómo,

ni el nombre, ni el nombre que te nombra.

Porque sé que estás cerca,

te siento en carne viva.

Me desperté llorando y supe,

y supe que no volvías.

Te siento en ese beso que no fué,

te siento en las ausencias.

Te siento en los escombros de este amor,

que me llenó de penas.

Te siento en el olvido,

te siento en el recuerdo,

te siento en cada parte,

te siento en todo el cuerpo.

Sympathy

You spoke the words, the room dropped 10 degrees
Suddenly I start to freeze
The air is thin, it’s hard to breathe
How should I react? Where to begin?
The walls are slowly caving in
It’s dangerous this state I’m in
Then you try to explain your deed, as I stand here and bleed
Shut up, I’ve already heard enough
I’m detached from my sanity, unstable and unwise
Don’t move, and nobody has to die
But I guess…

Breaking the pause, I go to turn around
I walk away, it’s getting loud
Someone turn the volume down
Gotta get destroyed and lose my head
Don’t think that I’ll return to bed
The bulls are out and seeing red
Take shelter, protect your heart, cause some treat it as art
Painting over and over it again
I try not to fall apart, attempting to hold on
Freak out, and everyone plays along
That…

Cry for me
Let me know you’re giving me thought
No more lies for me
Inject me with the honesty shot
Just sympathy
Leave it with me, it’s all that I’ve got
To face the storm out there

But…

I’m, doing just fine, I’m doing just fine
Just give me some time, I need to close my eyes
I’m doin just fine, and I’ll be all right
Don’t worry I’m fine, as I leave the world behind
Don’t touch me I’m shaking, can you hear me breaking?
Yet somehow I’m still standing
Well maybe I’m crazy, but this is really hard for me

To think your heart belonged to me
Can I get some sympathy?

Sympathy - Karmina

Duvet

Duvet - Boa.

And you don’t seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man
And all the fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear
And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don’t even feel a thing

I am falling
I am fading
I have lost it all

And you don’t seem the lying kind
A shame that I can read your mind
And all the things that I read there
Candle lit smile that we both share
And you know I don’t mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don’t even feel a thing

I am falling
I am fading
I am drowning, help me to breathe
I am hurting
I have lost it all
I am losing, help me to breathe

Here is the song:

Implode...

BoA is one of my all time favorite singers. And this song is sooo beautiful. I can really identify with some of the lyrics. Here goes...

The times that we can't go back to
The feelings that have fallen
Even if I grab them, they fall apart in my hand
Because of the constant flowing tears.
I keep on looking back
"Don't leave me"
Why were those words so hard back then?
"Stay next to me".
Why were those words so hard back then?
Completely, wholefully
I cherished the broken and falling memories
No matter how much I try, there's no use
The yearning holds me tight
Even though it keeps me lingering.
It won't even let me turn around
Words of parting, words of weariness
Those words are drenched in many smiles and tears.
Like a lie, would I be able to live as if nothing happened?
It's so damn hard for me to let you go
You know I can't let you go
You left me like that, but I keep seeing you
Even if I grab you, you fall apart in my hand
It's still you.
I keep waiting for you.
At the place where there's no empty memories of you.

Here is the the song. I hope you like it.

Life...

Life… Take chances… alot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up - and with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are… you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. say how you feel - always . Be you, and be okay with it. It doesn't matter what any other person thinks. In a world of comparison and conformity, make your own statement. Honor your own truth. Have the courage to be yourself; risk speaking your own thoughts and claiming your emotions. Share your vulnerabilities, tears, doubts, and insecurities; let others experience the real you. Have the courage to be yourself and realize that you are a wonderful person.

Bye-bye lover

It has been two months now... and I all I have are these memories and things that remind me of him... I dedicate this song to him, wherever he is...

With my back to the brilliant city
I turned my cellphone off
I looked up to the sky and something touched my cheek
It was a lone petal

I went out to be merry until midnight
But I still can't forget your face
Just a while ago, we were together
Now you've become this far from me.

Bye bye lover
Thank you for giving me the feeling of being loved
Bye bye, but I still long for you
As expected, I miss you

I realized the reason why we got tired of each other
I put my hand in my pocket
It's not because we're merely children
Starting tomorrow, there are things I have to do

The world is this spacious
And after sometime we will forget
With simply just your absence,
I have become this weak

Bye bye lover
I'll never forget this feeling of being loved
Bye bye lover but these tears
Ah, as expected, I love you

Bye bye lover, I fell in love.
Thank you for your loving...

My favorite description of love is from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin:

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." - St. Augustine